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Wednesday, 30 December 2009

Tangible




All my flaws make me real,
All my scars make me stronger,
All my griefs make me sane,
All my memories make me who I am.


.................................................~Afiq

Monday, 14 December 2009

To describe...




Pale persona.
Shattered hands.
Grey skies.
Thin shadows.

Lost words.
Empty chair.
Silent mind.
Broken home.

Silver smoke.
Subtle whispers.
Simple ideals.
Torn curtains.

Numbered days.
Failed promises.
Clouded vision.
Colorful dreams.


...............................~Afiq

Sunday, 6 December 2009

From a stranger...



Always and forever,
this feeling will linger.
But to you heart's desire,
I am still a stranger.


.............~Afiq

Wednesday, 2 December 2009

The 'terbaik'




Is that I will do the best that I can
To be a good example of man
I know one day that you`ll understand
You deserve the best that I am
You deserve the best that I am

Flaw ~ Best I Am

Tuesday, 1 December 2009

Why we hate each other...

Talk about being emo.. =P


Everybody hates everybody and everybody hates me…

My dad hates me.
My mom hates me.
My brothers hate me.
My sisters hate me.
My children hate me.
My grandparents hate me.
My cousins hate me.
My friends hate me.
My neighbours hate me.
My colleagues hate me.
My teachers hate me.

The bureaucrats hate me.
The ministers hate me.
The liberals hate me.
The conservatives hate me.
The doctors hate me.
The police hate me.
The old people hate me.
The teenagers hate me.
The women hate me.
The clowns hate me.

My enemies hate me.

But I hate myself even more. I’m ashamed of myself even more. Why? Because I am a failure. In fact, every one of the above is a failure as well. I am the by product of their thoughts. I am the hole that they fill in with their hate. I failed. I failed to stop bad things from happening. I wasn’t able to stop the fire. I wasn’t able to keep the peace. I only stood silent. You all hate me because you see yourself in me. You see a reflection of all the failures in your life. Don’t worry. I’m not giving myself any credit here. I’m insignificant. But you know I speak the truth.

The world is a shitty place. People are not nice. Families fall apart in the name of lust. People kill in the name of vengeance. The urge for earthly pleasures and the greed for wealth are too strong for all even the righteous to resist. I see them break. I see them stumble. I see them weak. Only strong when they are destroying each other. I hate them. Because I see myself in them. I see what they are capable of. And the fear of me becoming one of them grips at me with icy fingers, chilling me to the core. What am I saying? I am one of them.

No. I do not hate you. I am not ashamed of you. And it’s not that I don’t love you.

I don’t want to fail others. I want them to know how precious they are. That is why I choose to be distant. To save myself from failing others. To save myself from getting hurt. To live alone where no one can hurt me. But the price I pay is too dear. For I become cold and bitter.

If only there is a place where there is no hate. A place where people can truly be happy. But that’s not the world we live in. That’s not life. In life there is betrayal, anger, murder, divorce, thievery, torture, ignorance, greed, adultery, corruption and all the other vices.

I am just one man, as much as any man can be. My flaws are visible. Clear to the gazes of those few who even care to look. You can hate me for it. Despise me for it. Judge me. Chastise me. Destroy me. Save me. Save me from this world. Save me from the stupidity and the temporariness of life. Make me see the truth. Give me hope.

I don’t want to disappoint others. But most of all I don’t want to disappoint myself. So please don’t lose hope in me. For I don’t want to lose hope in this world.

What am I going on about this for? In the end nobody cares. But I'd like to think that people do.




Now this is right... 8)