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Tuesday, 23 February 2010

In time...



"Everything is different. Nothing is the same anymore. Everything changes. Nothing lasts..but some things do."

Monday, 22 February 2010

Ponder on the wonders yonder

 


I am sitting in my room, pondering. The days to come shall be a mystery to me and to all. As I am sitting, a friend outside my room lights up a cigarette. I can hear the sound of the match scraping the side of the box. The smell of burnt wood jolts me into reality. What a sensation to my senses.

I have nothing more to say. The words slipped from my thoughts. I guess sometimes we take things for granted. Oh well, I'll just go back to my pondering again.....

Friday, 19 February 2010

I woke up to a dream...




I woke up to a sudden jolt. I was sweaty. It was very hot despite having the air conditioner at 25 degrees. I was parched. I looked at the time. It was 5.38 a.m. I got out of bed, went to the bathroom, washed my face and drank a glass of water. Poured a second fill and I began to wonder, how can dreams be so horrible? I was suddenly gripped with fear. I looked at the shadows. I peered through the silence, listening to whatever sound that I could here just to find out if I was truly awake.

My dreams have been somewhat vivid these past few nights. Once I dreamt that the earth quaked and trembled. That all was dark and I was alone. And afterwards I would wake up feeling tired and drained, like I had been running for so long.

I dreamt of people. Some were known, some unfamiliar at all. New faces pieced together by figments of imagination or perhaps someone long forgotten. What I do remember is that they were all gone as the dreams were about to end. Yet some remained. They were those who wanted to hurt me. To cause damage physically, mentally, emotionally.

Last night's dream was the worst. I wasn't hurt. But I saw others that were. I saw children. I saw people wanting to hurt their fellow man. I saw the maniacal grin on a man. He said words that were as poison. It was filled with corruption. A voice that spoke of selfishness and deceitful desires. I saw....

I once thought myself that I am fearless. That my enemies could only hurt my flesh. That it would be a pain only temporary. I realized that this is not so.

I have felt the touch of fear. It was when I heard my sister screamed once. It was then that I knew that I could never be without fear as long as I cared for others. That as long as I have someone to love, losing them would be my worst fear.

 I asked for a sign. To know if I had made the right decisions in my life. If I had taken the right path.








Time moves quickly and every day fleets by as if they are mere seconds. People are forgetful. We come to a sudden virtuous resolve only to discard it later when it seems to be inappropriate at the time.

I don't want to forget. My dreams are vivid for a reason. They are teaching me. Guiding me. They are visions of what must be done and what to evade. Windows to a mystery with veils that hide it's true purpose. I hope that some would come true. Those that are filled with happiness and joy. Those where I can see people smile. Dreams where I am smiling with them as well.



Pardon me for my ramblings. I haven't been quite myself these days. I am sleepy. How can I not be? For even in my dreams I am wide awake.

Tuesday, 16 February 2010

Reach to fly....


 
 

I reach out for the sky,
With my empty hands held high,
As I aim to leap and fly,
To a place where none shall cry.

The winds will heavily blow.
The sun a bright golden glow.
Passing mountains of misty snow.
To a place even I don't know.

Perhaps to a green field beyond,
or to a land forever dawn,
or a kingdom where farmers yawn,
with a mighty crest of a silver swan.

And when you ask me why,
know that my love for you shall not die.
For never will I say goodbye,
Until the story ends with you and I.


.............................................~Afiq





Friday, 5 February 2010

Two strangers in a dream




I saw you in my dream last night.
Lovely and elegant as ever.
Unsure of what to do and say.
You looked at me and whispered.
Forever it seems I've known you,
Yet strangers we were in truth.
Then something displeased you.
You turned away and left.
You were gone and I was alone.
Like all dreams I tried to reach out.
Only to remain frozen and static.
Sorry am I for my lack of effort.
But can you blame me?
For I only see you in my dreams,
And never in reality.


..................................~Afiq