Greetings, people. I suddenly had the urge today to read some of my previous blog posts. I must admit that I truly enjoyed reading the comment section. I couldn't help but laugh out loud at some of them but I realised that there was a time when I was very active at blogging. It dawned on me that people regularly commented on my posts and there are some from readers who I do not know personally (most of them are from friends and colleagues of mine).
I used to think that I really enjoyed writing and blogging. I am not sure I feel the same anymore. I wonder though, if all the other bloggers feel the same. Could their absence be the result of their busy lives? Could it be that they have switched to other forms of writing? Or is it simply the case of losing interest?
Being at where I am now, such thoughts are surely daunting. I am still unemployed (there will be a special post about this any time soon) and at times I get worried as to the reasons why. Is it because my interests have changed? Could it be that I am not answering my true calling? Maybe I made a wrong decision at some point that resulted in me being this way. And don't get me started on marriage. While I am fine at seeing my friends finding their soul mates, it does bug me when other people tell me to get married soon. If I could, I would. But right now there are things that I need to get into order so I can marry someone. I'll need to earn a living first, of course. Then there is the preparation in terms of mind, body and soul. And it's not like there's anyone special in my life right now. No pressure.
Do not worry. I know that Allah has things in store for me. I am patient about it and I am glad the people around me are very understanding. Sooner or later my time will come. I know I will find my interests again be it in work, love or life. The proof? I am still able to breathe the morning air. That itself is worth to be grateful for.
Before ending this I would like to give a special shout-out to Nashrah, Azie, Afiqah, Haziq, Nen and all my blogger friends who have been there at the start. How I miss those days and how I miss you all. Take care.
P.S. Towards the end of writing this post, I went and ate a plate of nasi lemak and watched some parts of 'Dear Lemon Lima' on Sundance. :)