"What you felt in your heart when you first read the title! No? Ok.."
After more than a year of absence in the blogging scene, I have decided to make a comeback.
So many things have happened ever since my last post in 2012. Ups and downs, highs and lows. I do not think that I will be able to share all of them here though, since it would be very taxing for me.
I hope that my experiences these past few years have made me become a better and stronger person. A few days ago I decided to read some of my previous blog posts. I must say that it is quite hilarious when you read what you wrote about your own self, your own history, your own experiences.
Looking back at my old self, I realised that I tended to be confident in my own abilities and had this feeling that nothing can go wrong or that I was incapable of making mistakes. I wouldn't say that my confidence has faded over the years. On the contrary, I actually feel more confident in my own skin nowadays. However, I know what it feels like to make mistakes and therefore, hopefully, I have learned humility. I believe that I am more calculative these days though my emotions do get in the way at times.
We all wish that we would be spared from making bad decisions or take a course of action that reflects poorly on ourselves and the things we represent. I know that some mistakes can be hard to learn from and that it is possible for you to make the same mistakes again.
What is truly important, at least to my understanding, is that we must continue to strive in making the best of what has happened or befallen upon us and not let it negate the good things that we have.
There's more to this post than simply a mere reflection on personal growth. These past few weeks have been quite an experience as some defining changes happened to my life. I hope that these changes will improve my character and help me in making the best decisions in my life. I am certain that I am at a critical crossroads now. Seems that big decisions need to be made soon whether I really want to do so or not. I hope that Allah Subhanahu wa ta'ala guides me in taking which road is best for me.
"Perhaps it's the road not taken that I shall traverse".
On a lighter note, I am planning on compiling some of my writings(poems, scripts, stories) that I've done during my year of absence and post it here on 'choke on this'. You didn't think I entirely gave up on writing did you? And here I thought you know me so well. Until next time(hopefully not next year - *gulps).